I really enjoyed watching Dave Chapelle on Inside the Actor’s Studio tonight on Bravo. I really like him, not just because he is one of the funniest people on the planet, but he really seems like a geniunely good person. There were a few things he said tonight that really hit home with me. Continue reading ‘Lessons from Chapelle’
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Life is confusing (but that’s the fun right?). I’ve been wrestling a lot lately with the contradictions before me. On the one hand I feel a drive to constantly influence the world around me, to make an extra phone call, send an extra email, or have an extra meeting in the hopes that somehow I’ll improve things for the better. I also work hard at putting out good intentions, working envisioning the day, week, month year ahead of me that I want. Continue reading ‘Allow’
There is a major snowstorm in the northeast, and I’m really jealous I’m
missing it. As those who know me well know, I LOVE SNOW (and weather),
and I would be pretty much in heaven right now if I was up in NYC with
my sister. I’ve been watching a lot of the weather channel, reading
accuweather.com, wunderground.com and some of my weather blogs to keep
track of this storm. Continue reading ‘White with envy…..’
I have had a few people email me about my last post and ask me how do you find that passion in your life? I don’t really have an answer for that, but I do believe we all come equipped with some incredible tools that guide us, especially our body. By listening to my body, my gut, I have been able to narrow my search down quite a bit. For me when I’m coming up with ideas, brainstorming a new business or technology, my body is filled with energy and excitement. Continue reading ‘Finding your passion…’
The always though provoking blog by Steve Pavlina had a fantastic article, I’d recommend to everyone today. It’s a long, complex look at finding your purpose, your passion, your
calling in this life time. I know that I’ve heard that so many times
in my life, I wake up expecting to hear it. “Do what you love,
and the money will follow.” I truly believe in that. Logically it
only makes sense, you tend to spend more time on and learn more quickly
about things you love. And usually when you spend more time on and
learn quicker than most people about a certain subject, you already
have created value that other people will want. I’m
not talking about spending 4 years in college in computer science, and
then getting paid in a good job to work with computers. I’m talking
about someone who absolutely LOVES to cook, who would do it just about
anywhere for free, going out and cooking everyday. An example of true passion:
I have to admit that writing in here has been a struggle. It’s not because I don’t have any thoughts I want to write about, there’s a million of those a day, but it’s really more to do with what I call the “haze.” It’s this fog that overtakes my mind and makes everything unclear and difficult to grasp. Continue reading ‘dealing with the haze again…’
#1. Asking questions
I know the #1 implies I’m building a list, but I haven’t really thought out a list yet. This is just something I was thinking about this morning, during a morning workout (which was my first since my mom passed, and it felt better than I thought). Continue reading ‘Mom’s key to happiness….’
I’m not sure what it is, but it seems that after my mom died a lot of her close friends (and family) started having dreams of her. They would talk about how healthy, happy, and alive she looked in these dreams. And everyone talked about seeing her with that big, big trademark smile on her face (I miss that smile a lot). But the strange thing was that those who were closest to her (my sister, Tom, and I) have not had any dreams of her yet (at least that I know of for the other two). I’m not typical a big dreamer anyway. I know that I have them, but I rarely wake up in the morning with a clear memory of the movies that played in my head while I slept. But last night was different, I saw my mom.
I’m hooked. The PBS special Country Boys, a film following the lives of two teenage boys from Appalachia is fantastic and I’d recommend it to anyone. I can’t really put into words all the thoughts and feelings I had watching this program, but I will say that I did have an overall good feeling about people. We’re all trying to do the same things while we are here, no matter where or when you grew up. We all want to love, be loved, have fun, be fun, learn, teach, grow, and live. I know that things get complicated, and we sometimes think that the means are more important than the end. Continue reading ‘Life in perspective’
This weekend was very intense for me emotionally. Touched off by a little argument between my girlfriend Julie and I, the floodgates were opened and my emotions came pouring out. I really had a lot of sadness, crying, and pain related to losing my mom. For the first time since she left, I really was overcome with these emotions and the finality of the event started to sink in. I’ve never felt anything like it. I guess I never really surrendered myself to emotions before, and I have to say I’d recommend it to anyone (but please be careful when you cry, I somehow managed to pull something in my back this weekend from an intense bout of crying). After all, the tears, the sadness, the joy, love, happiness, jealousy, anger, etc are what makes us human, and denying ourselves these wonderful things is denying ourselves the feeling of being alive. This is a wonderful message my mom constantly tried to teach me. I remember a wonderful moment with her where I was overcome with emotion surrounding the break up with a girlfriend. I cried to her, and went on and on about how unfair it was. She stopped me, “Step back a minute. Look at the intensity of those emotions you’re feeling right now. Aren’t they beautiful? Isn’t it wonderful that you can feel those throughout your body?” It stuck with me.
